Nobody ever calls me back. I don’t know why this happens. I give my number out and I think that I have a good time with a guy and then I never see or hear from them again, and I can’t explain it… I have to attribute it to something that I’m doing or saying, but it’s really difficult when you have no idea what you’re doing or saying and when nobody will tell you. I don’t know. I’m at the point where I figure I’ll just have to get over it and learn to deal with whatever it is, because it’s apparently just a part of my personality. But it’s still annoying. And a little defeating. Knowing that I can be having a good time, and the whole time someone else is probably thinking that they’re not… That’s pretty sad.
happy birthday to me. and i’d like to take a moment to thank the universe for all of this years lessons and blessings… it was dope
I’m constantly trying to figure out what it is that I want. And it keeps changing because I keep discovering new feelings… or something. More like I keep discovering that the feelings that I wish were there aren’t really.And my life is in this constant free-fall, and I’m always preparing to hit the ground, but I never do. I just keep falling. And sometimes it feels like heaven, but mostly it feels like I’m crashing. And right now I’m somewhere right in the middle, where I can’t figure out if I’m crashing or flying. Maybe both.
